Day 56

Hi. You may not remember me but I’m Ange the girl that was on a mission. I don’t think I remember me much at the moment either. The last couple of weeks have been hard. I haven’t even wrote a blog post for 14 days, sorry!

Thank you to everyone who sent me a message or emailed to ask where I was, it is nice to hear from you and know you are reading the blog. Some people have told me they have read my blog then joined me on a healthy mission which really makes it a much more interesting and motivating journey for me.

However, I have to admit I have completely lost my way. Something happened which sent me into a spiral of bad habits. I managed to fight off the need to cry on my sofa with wine and Chinese, well I did for four days. Then the flat below us got burgled and CSI Weston began – everyone’s a detective these days, huh? I then gave in and had a chippie tea. I’m not going to lie – it was amazing.

I then had so many cake orders this week I haven’t had a second to think. Plus point of that, I have walked so many steps, just around my kitchen, that I finally hit my target for steps in one day.

steps

So no time for meal planning, no time for gym and hardly time to sleep. I do make better choices even when busy but I need to stop the association with food making me feel better. A good takeaway after a stressful day is far to easy and enjoyable. When I feel really sad or stressed, I want comfort food. When I want to celebrate, we go for a meal. When it’s payday we buy extra good food and an expensive pudding! My brain seems to be programmed to emotional eater. I need it to stop.

I can’t even say I am back on track now as I am still down in the dumps and ridiculously busy. Plus, it’s Easter and well, ya know, CHOCOLATE. All I can say is, I’m trying, and I’ll get there. I’ve got frustrated to not be seeing the results I want yet but I have to remind myself it took years to get this big, it’s going to be a long journey to shift it.

I am really thinking about joining Slimming World, despite the weekly cost. I think the weekly embarrassment weigh-ins would help me to stick to my end goal. I’m thinking about it anyway. I totally see why dieting is a billion-dollar industry!

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